This is how I looked at 200 pounds (yikes)

I am someone who knows what angles work for me, which means, that I can stage myself to appear much more attractive than I actually did at the moment. Before I started my fitness journey, I would take photos from the chest up so the rest of my body would be unseen. However, I couldn't hide it when my friends would take photos BUT because they didn't have the same people in their social media like me, I didn't pay too much attention to it.

Here is an example of what that looked like:

I circled the areas of my face that are the most changed (my face is more defined, my eyes look more awake). Because I know what works for me, I was able to take photos that hid my weight well.

Because of this, I didn't post many photos on social media and the only times I would, it would be with heavy filters and angle manipulation.


Keep in mind the photos below are when I was roughly 10 lbs shy of 200 lbs. So just imagine that in December of 2018 I had 10 lbs more on my body when I started my weight loss journey.

I look at these photos and I am embarrassed and ashamed I let myself go. I had 0 sense of self. I was blind to the shape of my body. Whenever I would look in a mirror, I think I used to trick myself into thinking I was okay. I don't remember how I looked to myself but I don't think I saw myself like this. I just know I would never compliment my looks or appreciate my body. It was skin on my body without any special attributes. 

It is sad to think that despite such negative emotions I had towards myself, I did nothing to get rid of them. It took a while to come to the realization that I control my life and that I am able to change it. It took 10 years BUT better late than never, right? 

For current pics of myself, CHECK out my Instagram @fattytobaddie01 or Youtube (on the sidebar on the left)

Thanks for reading this!

Chiseling my best self,

Sam